Period

"Will you look back on life and say, ‘I wish I had,’ or ‘I’m glad I did’?" ~ Zig Ziglar

I wrote a couple of weeks ago a post about my "missing" period. I said, at the time, that it threw me off so much that I didn't know where I was in my cycle. 

Finally, I did feel like I was ovulating because I had what for me is a symptom of my ovulating: an achiness in my right ovary. I said that I would see if my "feelings" of ovulation were "on target" if, in two weeks or so, I had my "normal" period. 

Well, it turned out that that achiness which usually last the 48 hours of ovulation for me, lasted about a week! I didn't know what the what was, so I just had to have a wait-and-see attitude. 

So, I did finally have something happen. I can't say it was "normal," but it seems to go along with my whole weeks worth of ahciness in my right ovary. 

I noticed brown spotting on March 7th. At first I was like, "Great (sarcastically), spotting, just like last month, that can't be good," but then the next day on the 8th the spotting was blood red, I put a larger tampon in, it was full, but then after that I put another tampon in but it was extremely light. Ugh, I thought. The next day, the 9th, I put a tampon in but it really wasn't a whole lot of bleeding. Sunday it was still light but I did feel like it was enough to need a tampon. Monday I was still having my period (my normal period usually consist of three days of bleeding and by the third night, and thereafter, not needing a tampon). Then today, Tuesday, the 12th I was still having a very light period but with red blood until about 4:00 p.m. and then by 5:30 it had gone to brown spotting. 

I'm just telling you all of this because it is definitely kind of up there in what is important to me in my whole reason for writing this blog in the first place - how to keep my fertility going for as long as I can so that I can achieve what my truest heart's dream is: having a biological child of my own!

Anyway, I will have to talk to my doctor when I see her on Thursday and ask her what her feelings are about how my period went this month, i.e., if she still feels like I'm "hanging in there," or if she needs to to do any hormone therapy to help me in trying to keep it going longer. I'll let you know what I find out from her.

I do feel thankful that I did have a period this month, but because it didn't feel like my "normal" one I have to encourage myself to keep being faith-filled. I have to remind myself that when it counts it will all going according to God's plan (and believe me, you have just as much clue about that as I have!). 

But that's the beauty of faith: when you really have it - and I think that in this one area of my life, I really do - the impossible seems so possible, it seems like its fulfillment is already accomplished; that it is only a matter of time until it is fully realized in the material world - in my world...